GIRLS DORMITORY, 4 --The Relation Gender Novel

ACT FOUR

The rotation time  when moving carts like oxen were turned slowly but surely. Time is always changing everything beyond the ability of human reason to expect. When ushered into the rainy season, changing the dead leaves that fall back buds and blossoms. When old age shed and replace it with the presence of young people.

The drought this year has to molt usually goes beyond the order of nature. Leaving only a frangipani tree branches and twigs without a leaves, soil parched, crowded dust flying, the air hot and stifling. Water sources in the dorm began to shrink, reduced water rations. Every morning and evening when the room assigned to drain the water too late to intervene, then from each block will be heard loud screams, "Water! Water! "Difficulty of water is a serious problem. Seemed to suppress all dry atmosphere, so dorm life seemed empty.

Senior citizens have managed to solve the studies, rejoice in the graduation ceremony and then packed up to leave the hostel. While new residents arriving replace empty places. The total number of residents has not changed, the fluctuations remain eighty students. The generation  character changed, the old residents can relax with the college, they were never in a hurry to graduate, a scholar not mature instantaneously, but through a process in the timeframe that is long enough. The  hard life will finalize an undergraduate academic ability. However, students are now required for inflation, the higher the cost of the semester, the soaring market prices, and fuel prices are strangled. Complaints from parents relating to the cause every student tuition must race against the clock as soon as possible to a degree, get a job with a diploma requirements and reduce the burden on parents, because no longer need to receive shipment tuition.

The atmosphere of dormitory began to change, as if the building was no longer "home" for students who are learning, but rather as a haven. Activities related to natalist dies, the holy month of Ramadan, charity, acceptance of new residents, graduation celebration seemed to lose meaning. Each resident is busy with her each togetherness becomes tenuous. Often the atmosphere becomes lonley and quiet, inaudible laughter of a group of citizens who mingle or busy in order to commemorate the special days  done wholeheartedly.

The day was really quiet dorm atmosphere, some residents attending college, some corruption, the other field assignments, the rest seek additional revenue by providing tutoring to high school students. The television in the hall goes silent, no one looks fun people to follow television programs. Drought adds to the atmosphere stifling, the air temperature increases, but at the darkening sky. Signs of drought will end seems to have started to look and approach.

Puspita standing on the balcony, she stared at the bare trees looked miserable, due to lack of water. It has been nearly six years as residents in the dormitory, she never goes beyond the socialization process that is difficult as new residents, is slowly becoming part of hostel life through a variety of activities that the hostel has become a kind of rituil. She was friendly and at odds with the other residents as usually every individual who lives to be part of a community. Now, it includes senior citizens and the oldest in G block in the hostel.

When a new resident Puspita ever wished, it would be nice to be a senior, she would be free from all oppression, and can freely do anything. Apparently between senior and new residents can just look at each other, each having a different problem, and the problem was the same weight. Inan, Irin, Santi, and the other has been grumpy senior have get  in the world of work, dorm life for them is only a piece of the past. Similarly, Murni, Sides, Sunarti, Agnes, and Soraya, hheir companions had preceded earned a degree, get identity with all state-owned.

Puspita feel a balance between love and hate when the "enemy" and her friends still live atmosphere in this hostel. Now, they're gone. Properly Puspita at peace, because she was not disturbed again with the attitude of bad "enemies" are often painful. But, oddly, this loss of life "lost interest", lost art, lost her balance when she actually gained freedom. She remembered how at ease when she and her companions could inflame "enemies" with the act of attitudes that make them inflamed. It favors making people feel unwelcome revenge and defeated. While the nights and events hosted intern with the companions have fueled warmth. Even though much of the family, she was not really alone, she has the "enemy" and friend with a balanced force.

Now Puspita had no opponent, she practically lost "lost interest" that can burn spark to ignite the spirit of life today. Puspita understand why Bharatayuda after victory in the war, the Pandavas became weak. One by one knight Pandavas died on the way to the hermitage to attain moksha. They fall silent and swallowed a balance shaken. One would never have arrived at these if you do not have the title of knight fighting a giant no enemy, the puppet will never crowded - what a warrior would do when the war is finished bleeding?

 Puspita suffering intense longing of the people-friends-who scratched memories in the days of past. She seemed to still be able to feel the presence and laughter that made her feel right hostel residence. Puspita tongue becomes bitter when she realizes the atmosphere in the hostel has become a stranger. A senior means a foster parent for the citizens of blocks and other dormitory residents. An old man can not complain, must not show a sad face, a parent should show a strong attitude and able for any responsibility that must be borne, a parent should be able to take any risk attitudes and decisions. And in fact, just how easy it all. Puspita understand why senior dormitory when it can be so fierce, bitchy, and scary. They carry the burden of responsibility for the lives of the citizens unite hostel consisted of various ethnic, religious, and class with a variety of different characters. The hostel is a small community, in which lived a large family, without a party capable of uniting everything will be divided, as has been happening in the present moment.

While the issue is not just about living in a dorm. She has completed all courses and corruption, except thesis. The scientific work which is a sign of the ability of a student to absorb all the course material, as well  interpret. Thesis often a scourge for all students, for this one because it is better to choose a failed student. Failed to compile the master thesis is to fail simultaneously translating all the course material ever studied. And she, Puspitasari, she would not fail. She never intended to follow ujinan go to college for a goal, success. In addition to the thesis, the question live on endless twisting, Puspita know as the creature she was shot.

"Miss, what are you doing, I was looking at the room, silent, apparently was alone here?" A voice breaking, shocking Puspita.

"Hi Re, I'm waiting for the rain, staring Puspita overcast sky was covered with black, cheered her heart, she is tired of past droughts.

Relina face staring wistfully seniors, they have built communication slowly and keep well. The distance between the new and the senior citizens have long been closed, the bonds of friendship that exist now. "Oh yes, I'm coming condolences over the death of the mother", Relina reached out, shook hands with Puspita weak. She is still in mourning, grief really in, she never dreamed a graduation photograph of the mother's father, but the father was long gone. Finally mom followed, wishful thinking it was just a broken glass pieces. She had lost loved ones before being able to reach the goals.

"What sick mother?" Relina put yourself sitting angled near Puspita.

"I did not hurt anything, she has finished cleaning the whole house, lying in bed and then sleep forever. Mother of a woman who thinks Java is simple, there is no any thought in her head except devoted to her husband and children. She received all treatments father, good and evil without protesting without complaining, for the mother was so destiny which must be a woman, "Puspita faraway view, she felt comforted by the presence of Relina, even though she was not able to change anything in her life, except Friends for complaining.

"I just got out of the house when friends delivered this sad news. Hope ya get the power band to face all this. Everything that ever lived would have passed away to the Creator, the mother must have been a very good, death came easily without a long illness ", Relina trying to entertain.

"Thanks Re, I am sorry, because it has not managed to become anything, I still have to fight. I do not have time to return the favor, no time to prove how she was not in vain birth then raised me. Ah, I've got no place to go back .... "

"Is not ya Pita still have a home to go home?"

"True, but I do not want to go home to see unfamiliar faces, faces hurt. I had to get a job in New Guinea, but the condition must pass first. Later, I will go away forever from the house I live and go to a completely new place. "

"How about your brother? Where they are?"

"My brother is two, all have a family, to a relative's house I decided to vacation, they are also responsible to complete my college fund."

"Who lives in your house  now?"

"A foreign face to face on this one please, you do not ask, let her be a part of the past. We live in the present and the future ".

"I think you still get  lucky,  get to know the birth mother who gave birth and then raising. I only know the mother's face by a photo that is increasingly blurry, I never knew who the mother who gave birth, my father never told me ".

Words Relina make Puspita stunned, as if she could not believe when staring deep into Relina face, how her eyes blank, blank and glazed. She was immersed in sorrow, the death of loved ones, and she was lucky, because she knew exactly who she was. She gets love, attention, responsibility in all sincerity. While Relina, she never knew the mother who gave birth, did not feel compassion, and responsibility. Relina not even sure the mother is alive or dead. Uf, how the winding road of life!

They still continued to talk until suddenly becomes saturated cloudy, drizzle turned, and spilled into the rain. "Let's go inside," Relina took Puspita hand, entered the hall, the two continued conversing near the window while the rain fell from the sky, long dry finish. Slowly fragrant smell of wet soil, from the west, the pale sun still penetrates straight through the gaps revealed clouds parted wind. The rain changed as a series of crystal ball that fell uniformly, drops to the ground and then destroyed. Bare trees, twigs instantly drenched baked clams as if cold. Deep dust reunited with the ground. Hot air quickly turned into cool. The wind spread the fragrance all over the ground.

"O yes, Saturday night where are you?"

"I'd like to read novels, Ronggeng Paruk, by Ahmad Tohari".

"How about your boyfriend? He overnight Sunday?"

"No, it is more fun to read novel."

"I've seen a law student, but it was so long ago."

"We have agreed to part ways."

"It seems you are quite mismatched".

"From the outside it might be, but Hendra just a dreamer, he pressed me to perform proper celebrities. One thing that is not possible, he himself was just an eternal student, living in a boarding room and seek additional income by becoming a street artist. He always dreamed of marrying a celebrity or at least the son of an artist so that he can ride the popularity, because he would not have known of his ability. He did not know how complicated life I have lived. I want to be myself, finish college, get a job, regardless of the burden of parents, doing the best I can do. How about the thesis? "

Puspita not immediately answer, her fate is now in the hands of the lecturers. In certain situations a teacher as gods who filled the authority to determine the living dead students. Senior faculty often being idealistic, too idealistic, so sometimes the guidance of thesis to be done for years, until the students concerned parents died and she came for, condolences in tears. Now, she has lost both parents, but the coach never knew what was true in the twists and turns of life. A student with a body as strong as Tarzan necessarily even have to face a cold sweat when the supervisor in order consultation. And he shall set the time as precisely as possible, the courage, began with prayer and fight heartburn pain in stomach before facing tutors. Oh my Lordi!

"My proposal is approved, but the mentors a professor who is very busy. He was busy and idealistic, I had trouble to establish communication. Maybe I should do a proper strategy to ease the path, so that he can understand my predicament. Re, how about your thesis too? "

"I just submitted a proposal, while on trial, new return preparation service learning for data collection in the field and then start writing. Oh yes, later Sunday night show where? "

"I'm still natural sorrow, I want to retire in the guest room,  prayed for the mother", guest rooms located near the administration, while empty. The rooms were used for students who need the peace without being disturbed by noise from other residents.

Outside the heavy rain, everyone was happy with the change of seasons. Ended a long drought has been, in the yard some residents even as she looked to play rain gutters collect water from the stream. Heavens slowly extinguished.

"Re, block E had received an invitation from Ms. Yulistin marriage?"

"It".

"Re going?"

"I have to monitor the development of the proposal, there must be repaired, after Surabaya quite far from Yogya. Miss Pita come? "

"I think so, Yulistin close friend when she was living in a block of G, she would have been disappointed if I was not present at the marriage. Yesterday she called, expressed her condolences and to ask me to come. I'll try to come, is still two weeks away ".

"I could have entrusted a small gift?"

"Can".

"What about your marriage plan ?" Relina change the subject.

This question makes Puspita silent, her marriage is a sacred institution that approved a once in a life and forever. Not an easy thing to define a life, because she had not even been able to be herself. He will not decide to print wedding invitations before affairs lecture finished, before she got the job. Yet still the Lord that govern mate. "I have not thought of, which is more important to me is to finish the thesis, the others will come, there is nothing more important before handing out wedding invitations."

"In some cases I look after a marriage, women are experiencing excessive pressures of life, domestic violence and so on. I will not be as free as it should when busy with the kids and husband '.

"You do not want to marry Re?", Puspita see any women tend to choose to live single till old age, for several reasons, including the fact that turns from dreams of a bride.

"I see a lot of bad experiences of women who were married, my experience with Hendra also teach that. If marriage makes life better I will live, if not, I feel no less than my life being lived ", Relina remembered the marriage of her parents, she never even knew her mother, her stepmother now experiencing complex problems with errors father-fault either intentionally or not. Re knew she survived for Maya, her own child needs a family, need a mother and father. Existence itself is a burden for the mother, but she remained steadfast, she showed her love and devotion to her husband's excessive. Mother frugality, saving from spending the rest of the money, after the money was collected, then the father will do mencomotnya pressure, in many ways. When my father harvesting profits, she began making plans without asking for consideration of capital expenditures, so the money was sold without rest. So dad would push back the deposits collected painstakingly mother. The pressure that lasted for years. Amazingly, she had never fallen to the difficulties that afflict up to as old as marriage. She put the responsibility for the future of the children, even though she is only a stepchild. Re imagined, she will never be able to get problems like this.

"There's an interesting book, you should read it, the book is about being a woman. I never felt nervous like, but the book was more than enough as a solution. Wait here ". Puspita went up to the room and returned shortly afterwards with a book in hand. "Read it, and while up here we encounter, then connected again".

Both girls were split up, each wave, stepped into a different door. The hall fell silent again. Outside the sky was extinguished turned into darkness. The rain has not let up.

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 A big heavy iron door and locked it slowly, but surely revealed wide after Relina read and understand the contents of the book lent Puspita. She was confined in a closed room with a culture called patriakhi of her life, she was trapped, screaming, and pain with pressure so heavy and hardly any loopholes to get out. That gap has now widened into toors, so that Re was able to breathe free air and staring at a limitless horizon.

She has been sentenced Hendra as an absolute product of the culture patriakhi, a figure that has been conditioned to be a "dictator" in an environment. "Dictator" for a woman who became a life partner, either been approved or not. Now, Re eyes open, that she was not differ much from Hendra, she is also a figure of the absolute character of the results of the same culture. One character is formed for hope, dependent, and dreaming of the glory of the heart of a prince from a fairy tale. The prince is true only in a fairy tale, it would never come down to earth as a reality. Unless she can continue to sleep and dream forever. She was already dreaming.

Re surprisingly awake, she has been stuck in the box, the walls of which required her to rely on men, as the weaker party should be protected. Why should he feel weak? Why should she be protected? Had not she live with confidence hearts completely? She was able to complete all the courses without the presence of men, she could write a thesis and earned degrees without the interference of men, except the supervisor may also be a woman, she can get a job earning, and achieving "power" without the intervention of a lover or a husband.

So, to whom she must depend but on herself? Males live only a friend, she also being.

"Weak" precisely when the middle dealing with a woman, especially a woman beautiful, intelligent, and dignified. She can be such a female figure, and it was not difficult. She realized it means independence, work, achievement, and meaningful for others. Only the high-minded to accept and welcome the neighborhood. Re smiled  dorm life has to be like that, to be accepted and acceptable living conditions of the toughest. What is the problem now?

Re staring out the window with a smile on her lips unfurled, from the golden rain sash flower that blooms appear more yellow, soft dangling from a height as if to reach the soil surface, more beautiful than the previous days. Re knew, she would surpass the days ahead better, no more wall to scare her, because she has gone beyond fear itself. Re was still clutching the book and read it many times, so she can memorize the contents inside.

"Good morning Ma'am", a strange voice echoing Relina surprise, she turned. She soon found the shadow figure, a girl in jeans with a sky blue T shirt and leather shoes, a school bag slung over her shoulder. They looked at each other, as if trying to get to know each other. "Excuse me Nelly, new people here, I am from Medan, a student of second year Government", the girl who claims to be the new residents reached out, shook Relina immediately, both smiling.

"I Relina, while I was alone in this room, the last new residents resigned, failed to socialize with the hostel. Let me show you your room, "Nelly Re ushered into the room and showed two bedside is still empty. "You can choose which bed you like, stuff you can quickly bring it here, you have to be a citizen."

"Well ", Nelly agreed, she was cool with Relina a friendly welcome. She has been a lucky new residents, as senior Re been changed habits in accepting new residents. All citizens of Block E should be reasonable, may not suspect, intimidate, backbiting, "hostile", first make the new residents feel left out. Democracy must be applied without exception, especially for new people "stubborn", then Re can take tough measures, tougher than previous senior action, without theatrics or contrived. She acted decisively with full consciousness, stunned residents who had to be disciplined.

Nelly In addition, there is also another new residents, namely Candida Kewawada Theresia, called Erdi, sweet lady from Flores, Larantuka. Block E gets a small two new residents, Relina now the oldest on the block, she can do anything without a resident can call it. Two new residents so sweet and innocent, Re and other citizens feel comforted, being crowded and the atmosphere of the hostel life. Nelly clever turns funny, when Re was tired with the guidance of the thesis, the girl can speak with a ridiculous joke. Nelly could convey opini with communicative, she did not hesitate to ask for clothes Relina never worn, asking for money for a ride to campus or  the city bus spoiled, because she realized Relina love her.

Nelly became an obedient sister room, However creative. Later, Relina will always be remembered, that she never even fought for rooming with Nelly. It's treating the pain, when she recalls her relationship with Dita ended with a slap on the cheek senior. The Erdi, she was spoiled with Nelly, she regularly come every day to the room for a variety of purposes. She experienced a freedom that never come before the citizens. Sometimes they are at odds, but with a relaxed Re admonished again and their relationship soon becomes familiar.

Three of them, Relina, Erdi, and was busy eating a meatball Nellt Malang Cak Mahmud when Puspita come up with a fresh face after a shower. "Hello ladies, apparently there was a small party?" Sound as loud Puspita prenjak birdsong.

"Hey, let's join, there are meatballs idle", Relina invited. "Oh yes, the book is finished I have read, thank you, a workable theory, there is nothing that makes me scared."

"While I also was reading, borrow once all right?", Nelly opened sound fun while eating meatballs. Food has become her favorite people, of course, after the chicken eski Arek-Arek Surabaya.

"Oh yes please", Puspita meatballs tasted a spoon from a bowl Relina. "That was great, but I was there for other purposes. My bike down the engine, stay in the garage, so I have come to ask for your kindness Re, may borrow your bike? "

"O may, incidentally, I do not go anywhere, tomorrow's going to stay in a room reading a book to deepen their theoretical framework", Relina came into the room and came out shortly thereafter, carrying the key and the motor vehicle registration. "Where are ya?" Re held both objects were asking.

"There's me, tomorrow story. Previous Okey thank you, excuse me. Daaa ..... "

"Daaa ...." said Re, Nelly, and Erdi simultaneously. They continued to eat dinner together, the sound from the back of the hostel gending  as echoes of the serene sounds mystical world.

Suddenly intercome voice from the living room. "Tuuut ....!"

"Yep!" Nelly replied agile.

"Good evening ladies, Erdi there?" Came the deep voice of a young man bands. Nelly had memorized sound Yono, Erdi’s brother  a lecture at the same faculty.

"Yono Hello how are you? Alright is not it? Erdi off at her  girlfriend, I wrote that down huh? " Nelly  voice get in action.

"Yes, it may bring down the important plate of cookies and a cup of coffee".

"Coffee is expensive, cake is  expensive cake too", Nelly  silent as possible, so that Re laughing.

"Yono, Nelly lie, Erdi there. Ransomed with a basket of rambutan, then you can meet with your sister. Ha ha ha ....! "Relina back into laughter, followed by Nelly.

"Hey, brother Yono, wait a minute I get off!" Erdi haste ran to the room, she had dressed before going down to the living room. She had memorized it on the behavior of Re and Nelly in welcoming the arrival of her brother. "I am the living room first."

"Say hello to your brother, do not forget to visit following, taxpayers with a basket of rambutan," said Relina.

"Iyo, hello again, rambutan season yet, the price is too expensive", the voice came again in intercome Yono, instantly Relina Nelly and laughing, they did not think through intercome Yono eavesdropping.

After the death of Erdi, Relina and Nelly spent the last meatball to scoop and then packed a bowl and clean the dirty tables. Relina immediately facing the desk, reading a book, while Nelly read Puspita’s book read while lying in bed. The atmosphere became quiet, Nelly turn on the radio, the sound echoed a second later Roxette sang the soundtrack mainstay in the  Pretty Woman movie, starring Julia Roberts and Richard Gere. Nelly decrease the volume, the song can only be heard in the room, clear and touching.

Re bored reading the literature, she also divert target, read novels of author Sidney Sheldon idol. She was immersed in the adventure of the separatists Eta, Spainl unnoticed until the clock showed 03.00 am. Her eyes felt heavy, dizzy head, the body began to feel pains, wet cold sweat.

The next morning  Puspita came to Relina’s room to return the keys and registration, she brought a box of cookies were delicious too. Puspita  found in a state of poor health. Her face was pale and haggard, the clock showed 09.00 pm, but Relina not get out of bed. Nelly had left college after clearing pickets around the room. "Re, you look pale?" Puspita frowned.

"I read the literature and then further by Sidney Seldon until three in the morning. Time items, so terrible. "

"Terrible  anyway, but the condition of your body decreases. Let I care, you can only recover the scrapings ", Puspita offering both. They have been used to scrape  each other, when one is in a state hospital. The whole hostel was aware of the habit. This traditional method of treatment proved successful, since all pain and soreness all over his body would disappear.

"Well", following the suggestion Puspita, without scrapings she feels pains for days, weak, and consequently all the activity stopped. Re handed ax oil to coin a hundred dollars, and a tissue. She stripped off to his back appeared smooth, yellow, and soft. Re lay on his stomach, rubbing the oil Puspita then began to scratch the coins. Girl's hand so skilled in doing this one, Puspita perform repeated movements with a strong and regular pressures.

"Red Points, you really catch a cold", Puspita continue to act, so that the entire back Relina symmetrically etched red color like fish spines form. Slowly Relina felt pain in her body disappears, the influence of oil axes provide a warm effect. And she feels comfortable. Scrape scrape event rose over, Relina Puspita brought cake tasting, she could feel the pleasures. Puspita also brewed glass of sweet tea. "You'd better rest, take a nap and wake up in a better condition. I'm going home, I have to do there. "

"Well thank you", Relina lay back, she feels quite satisfied with a glass of hot tea and a box of cake Puspita giving . The girl became sick not only because of the "puppet", she thought of something more important, guidance thesis stressful and agonizing all nerves, she also fell. She needs one or two days of rest to recover stamina and active deperti normal.

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Relina poured milk into a pan, cloths with jelly, she also fill in  brown sugar and granulated sugar. Fire stove lit in blue, rose boiling liquid, Re stirring  pour egg gradually into the liquid that has been simmering. And she poured it into a mold that has been coated with a regal biscuit. Re had to wait a few minutes, before it hardened gelatin, so she put it on the table located in the hallway as a sign, that those residents who may be cut through and taste. Re separates several pieces of agar into the dish, she intends to share the results of cooking for Inung.

In the sitting room Cica daydreaming, she just lived alone with a new resident, an empty bed waiting for new people to come fill them. While the younger middle school room in the afternoon, she also lost in the painful solitude. Lonely jerking and skinned it, if she had the authority to change the destiny or turn the clock back and fix everything that is wrong then straighten?

"Cica, how are you?" Relina emerged from behind the door with a plate of jelly. She found Cica was sitting at the table studying with a book open agenda. "I have made jelly, I hope you like it", Re put the plate on the table to learn, but Cica seemed lifeless. Re know, why be so gloomy face Cica. "Not long ago, Ms. Pita's mother died, I'd give condolences. Now I also have condolences for the death of your sister, death can come at any time, in many ways. God's power for all the things that he wants ".

Cica glanced at the photo on the table beautifully framed, it looks close up picture of a teenage girl dressed in white with a face that is soft and shaded eyes, a face so clear. The face was shaded curly hair combed neatly with shimmering gold clasps. "My sister is so pretty, she is not only beautiful, but has a soft heart and a pair of hands to take care of the whole patient in the home, only a few months after she intends to Yogyakarta after the study is completed in high school, but death came sooner than planned", Cica began to speak, slowly and as if moaning, her eyes filled with tears.

"What is it?"

"My sister, Laras, she often complained of pain in the gut, it may have been very chronic ulcers. I do not know exactly what had happened, she sent a letter last, she became terrified of my parents' marriage plans. The barrel is too young to understand what marriage is, she was only seventeen years old, engaged to a businessman twice her age. Fear makes the disease worse, I do not know what really happened. Her body was stiff when I saw for the last time, "Laras tears dripping, half sobbing her voice back, she views hollow, as if she were talking to herself when in the vicinity no one. "We are five brothers, I am the fourth child, Laras youngest sister, she was the only one that I love of all that can be had. My mother treated five children with different ways dross. Boys are free from any obligation to take care of the house and the kitchen, though they are treated as if the king would never have the crown. Girls just dust, servant to serve the needs of the king, I'm in pain with all treatments, the barrel is experiencing the same thing. Boys are free to go to a late night, she could mock a servant girl with a cloth that must refute every day. We feel very contemptible, frequently ill Laras, being burdened daily work is very heavy. Our house is very large with seven rooms. Task daughter, me and the barrel was cleaned every day of the year. We can not leave the house when azdan sunset have sounding, it was so bad she said. Many male friends Laras came to visit, she was very polite and charming, smart sister writes poetry, she was often asked to write on the bulletin board for his friends came to visit. Mom always suspicious arrival Laras friends, one barrel had heartburn, vomiting, accused her mother was pregnant, because hanging out with a male friend. The barrel is too innocent to touch any man, she never thought of the accursed thing .... "Inung shrinking tears. "The barrel was devastated by the treatment of the mother, she was too boy to defend herself, the old man was right after all, children only dolls owes and must pay according to, according to every word and treatment, right or wrong. I never begged or barrel to be born, she decided on a wedding night with her father, then we are .... "

Relina stunned, as if he was sucked into the storyline  Cica with Laras figures in it, she could feel the stinging pain. Is it true that a mother can behave like that? But it seems unlikely Inung berbohon. So, the barrel is a true story. Relina reach for a tissue, handed Cica, girls and even then shrink tears.

"I had the same feeling with the barrel, but I was more stubborn. I do all the tasks houseboy then I locked myself in my room, studying. Laras tried following in my footsteps, but her heart was too sensitive. When the barrel is still living at home still have friends to share your whining and duties as a servant, after I was in college, she toiled all day as a houseboy for a friend without complaining. Pressure, yelling, verbal abuse of mothers received almost every day. My brother to no avail, they just assume sex  requires capital and capital to try, but never succeed. The barrel is only a matter of a few months to catch up to Yogya and out of this mess, but God wills others ".

"She was engaged to a businessman?" Re said.

"Yes, a wealthy man, I know how she is very ambitious about wealth, as well as my brother the other. Laras sacrificed, even if it is I may be getting a miracle, I wish my sister was revived, so that I can save like I'm trying to save myself, " Cica sobs began to subside, she has shed all the burden of liver, as long as she keeps this issue, but for what she is hiding a secret, if the demons continue to haunt him.

"This is the worst result of patriakhi culture, a culture that places men as subjects and women as objects, the culture will not change unless the perpetrators are aware, understand, and try to change it. Time is ticking, time change. Keep in mind, one day we will become parents, will give birth to offspring of men and women. Treat them with the same rights and obligations, the human being is different not because of sex, but because of the character and behavior. "

"It is true that, in many countries women suffered a similar fate, gender has always been a global problem, but I do not think that my sister would be a victim of the barrel, so. My mother never told what disease has been suffered by the barrel, but my sister was dead ", Cica have been able to control herself, she needs to pour a glass of water, drink to moisten her dry throat. "Sorry Re, I share with you the burden of life."

"Share in thick and thin is a necessity, do not feel guilty. I also have a younger sister, Maya, I want to love like you love the barrel, but I always fail.  I can not do as well as you. "

"You can be a friend can also be the enemy situation and outlook on life is very supportive, for all the bad things that we can change from ourselves".

"Thank you for coming and advice. Ah, suddenly I was hungry, you make jelly? "Inung became interested Relina offered. She  had enough bitching, shed enough tears. Even if her tears turned to blood, the sister not be revived, she was lying in eternity.

"Yes, this is for you, eat for the added power. Perhaps sad, but do not drag on, you can still save the other barrel ", they still continued to talk until it got dark, at night no longer marked by the sound of thumping gong eight times. Some guests had mocked, it sounds exactly the same with the sound basket fell to shoo them away. After the gong was stolen, sexy dorm coordinator to replace the sound of musical instruments in the living room as a sign of visiting hours were over.

"Before you sleep tonight, I go with you, rather than your own?" Re volunteer, she knows how lonely hearts a sense of being left off for good.

"I do not have sister Re?"

"No, I locked the room first, soon come again", Re returned to the room, a few minutes later she returned to the room, bringing with them Cica bedding.

......to be continued.....

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